Wednesday, July 27, 2005
it's sunshine aft the rain
had a gd talk. at least i'm aware of the situtaion. felt so much better.
so in the end, i ended up not doing any ticks n crosses. but instead, i made myself a pair of ear-rings and bracelet. haha...
finally can conc on work w no worries. no more crying myself to slp at nitez...
more ticks n crosses till exams over ;p
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
11:11 pm
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Happy 17th Bdae, sis!
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
8:13 am
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Tuesday, July 26, 2005
gelare tuesday
met zhenshan at orchard for waffle. wanted to spend off my stress but found nothing to buy. lipstick color no stock too...
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
11:36 pm
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Monday, July 25, 2005
the results...
PT =
negative of course
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
12:50 pm
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Sunday, July 24, 2005
half dead
woke up at 730 to get rdy for a workshop inthe west. thx to foo who gave me a ride to n fro. slept since 1pm till 7am this morning to get rdy for monring prayers. 18hrs of slp. well who could beat tt? no lunch n dinner too! half haf thru the morning prayers, i felt sick. the stubborn me ignored the symptons. at the end of the session, i was seeing starts alrady. i felt faint. i felt soft. i felt my soul leaving me. mum attributed it to no food so i had bfast there. still feelign weak, dad fetched me to see a doc. omg, much to my horror, the doc suspected tt i was pregnant. the symptoms of vomitting in the morning n aft lunch since some wks ago n the giddiness i had this morning made the doc tell me this. i was more than positive tt i am NOT! well will heed doc's advice to go polyclinic tmr for more tests. the ref letter says tt i deny prgnancy! wtf! i know i am def NOT!...then he suspected diabetes. oh well...the tests tmr will tell...we shall see...
gonna miss choy, emm, lav n nel. the rm will be much quiet tmr. less familiar faces. no jokes n less laughters. but i found 2 idols. edgar managed to do up a class blog n amos did a ppt for his english lesson.
but there's something missing still. sigh...
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
4:14 pm
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Saturday, July 23, 2005
RHD celebrations
it was busy day indeed. reached sch at 645 to help get the assembly talk rdy, left sch at 8 for newater plant. brought 5 kids there as part of their proj for njrc. busy calculating $ to pay for the class fotos. the vendors selling popcorn n cany floss arrived muvh to pupils' delight. the queue was long. thx to the help of a pv n some trs, it went on smoothly. we were busy taking
photos during MT. haha...the oni time u'll see our heads not buried in the sea of books. the day came to an end but the nite is still young.
went cocco latte w choy, emm n nel. went nel's place w choy b4 cabbing to emm's place. . . it was a nite tt i felt sick, couldnt even finish my first drink. choy even helped me w my second drink. the music wasnt to my liking but the company was GREAT! saw some showbiz ppl too. spotted this cute looking guy-i called him mr sq. told choy, emm n nel abt him. ha they found him cute too. however, me n choy somehow came to a conclusion that he was younger than me. cos he was hanging ard w choy's frenz. hm sweet hm at 0230
*yawn...
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
2:38 am
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Tuesday, July 19, 2005
more than a million pieces
we hardly talk to each other now. the conversation gets shorter and sometimes even none at all. "y cant i b as cold to u as u r to me now"
the day went past juz lk tt again. yet another busy day in sch. work, work n more work. at the end of the day, it was waffle session w the young ones. had dinner, did some grocery shopping too. hm sweet hm. bought 3 mag this mth. the greater my stress level, the more i spend. sigh...
another long day tmr. nothing to look forward to anymore unlike the past few mths when life was so much happier. haf u felt it?
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
10:53 pm
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Monday, July 18, 2005
tried my luck
yah i tried my luck but there's no response YET. will there be a response? i'm still waiting and always will. going sch everyday n trying to look alright is juz so tough. no matter how busy work is keeping me everyday but u're juz on my mind. will u ever know how much i miss u still. i'm telling you now. "yes i do miss u"
feel gd aft the new hairdo. finally had tt courage to try it. the day began early with me attending a briefing, had lunch n took cab back to sch w my colleagues. wat lovely colleagues i haf! the day past by so quickly. n soon it's the end of the day. dinner n shopping w K. haha...all the truth is: u're still on my mind. but wat hurt me most is u n ur no response. the happy moments were over. will they be here again? i want so. damn...y m i still thinking of u when u're so cold to me now. u took my heart away...
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
10:35 pm
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makeover!!!
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ha tt's me now. well i've always been thinking if i should be doing this n i finally got dwn to doing it today. met kathryn at 4pm at PS to do hair tog. the process started slightly past 4 cos i was late but by the time it was done, my watch said 9pm. oops...but we managed to do some shopping though. haha...n i bought a skirt from g2000 cos it was havign sales then. haha...burnt a big hole in my pocket already. shall watch my expenses for this mth.
tata...time to get some work done or should i go meet uncle zhou?
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
12:13 am
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Sunday, July 10, 2005
life is not a fairy tale
life is nv a fairy tale. things dun always turn out the way u want them to be. tt is life. change is constant as i once mentioned this to a colleague. it's oni when u learn how to adapt to the changes then u'll overcome the challenges. challenges nv stop at one. they come in multiples. if u wanna be the winner, u've got to work v hard.
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
9:23 pm
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NE Show 2005
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
3:13 am
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Saturday, July 09, 2005
how did we fall in love?
Think back to the day when u first laid eyeson her. u found urself charmed by the wayshe talks, the way she dresses herself toshow off her best features & the way sheembraces life with her laughter.
It seemed as if a mysterious "chemistry effect" hassuddenly developed to draw u closer to her.
You two then began to meet regularly, and udiscover more things tt u admire about her.Her clever ideas, her healthy values and de way she stands up for you when othersdoubt you.
You find yourself thinking of her not just as a normal friend, but a very gdfriend. It is often during this period tt a boy and a gal will start thinking of bringing their friendship to another level. After all, the kindof wonderful experience u've between each other can only become even better if it develops into a romantic relationship. In other words, the feeling is really unique - no one else seems able to replace her in yourheart. So both of you agree to go be together & work even harder on the relationship.
u "graduate" to become a couple, and are the envy of the sea of singles.When u Forget The FundamentalsHowever, at some point in ur relationship, uforgot how it all began.
You start to take your partner for granted.Why can't she laugh in a more ladylike manner? Why doesn't she dressherself more trendily? Why must she assert her views and point out your silly mistakes?
Is she really the one for you?To be fair to yourself and to her, take sometime to reflect on your "love memory".
The "love memory' contains all the reasons ttu fell in love with her right from Day One. It contains rarely accessed snippets of how your life has changed since meeting & loving her.Pre-steady days, did you heap compliments on her for the brave way she spoke her mind on bullies and snobs? You probably did. Did you like her unusual fashion sense tt makes her stand out from the crowd?
Who I Want to Meet: Right. So why are you criticising or finding fault with her now that she is your girlfriend?Because you have forgotten the fundamentals of love, like so many of us. uhave forgotten the reasons u admired her during the friendship phase.Instead, once you went steady, you put your "love memory" in cold storage.As her boyfriend, you take up a new set of demands and expectations abouther. These new ideas are not necessarily better; they could put your relationship at risk.
The Secret Of Strong RelationshipsA healthy relationship, like learning to walk properly, follows a step-by-stepdevelopment. You can't possibly become part of a couple if you aren't friends in the first place. Ok, I know some of us break the ruleand plunge straight into whirlwind courtship, but how many of those couples can go de distance?
So whenever your relationship hits a rocky path, don't give up without checking on your "love memory". Rediscover the reasons why you fell in love.read this fr a fren's blog. juz wanna do some sharing w u. n i think it's true.
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
10:10 am
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Thursday, July 07, 2005
imagine the black background is my mind. then the dots are the many little things running in it. the splashes refelect the number of times i tried to think clearly. but the harder i tried to clear my mind, the more confused i get. not so much of confused but the sadness that things turn out this way. when i felt life is getting better for me, tt happiness nv stay long. but i'll try my best to make it stay. but still it takes two hands to clap.
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
10:31 pm
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r u rdy for the truth?
my heart sank...at least no more tears now. from the system thinking course, i learnt "r u rdy for the truth". well i guess i was rdy. the walk back wasnt good. many thoughts flowed thru my mind. flashes of the sweet memories invaded my mind. no matter how hard i tried to brush them away, they're there to stay. it's a battle i need to take on. it's a fight i need to fight with might. at the end of the day, at least, i know i tried. i fight for my want and belief.
once bitten twice shy. i would not let my heart bleed again aft u.
when will the ticks n crosses end?
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
9:39 pm
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on second thought
hee...not so much aft all...i feel better today. juz dunno y but i can feel my heart smiling. haha...=)
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
10:47 am
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school...yucks
i hate coming to school =(
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
8:53 am
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Wednesday, July 06, 2005
Growing up with friends
hey emme, i did it. actually i was so tired tt i was supposed to slp half an hr ago but this new thingy which i learnt fr emme kept me awake. ha...some thing else to do beside work, work n more work....have i lost touch w IT ever since i started the "if u teach me how". time to read up again...ciao for now cos it's another sch day tmr. i'm waking up early for the ticks n crosses...G.A is chasing me to slp already. yes i'm going to slp soon, G.A. Nitez...
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
10:36 pm
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living thru
it's
trust,
faith and
hope that keeps me going all this while.
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
8:51 am
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Monday, July 04, 2005
painful monday
my first time experiencing cramps. it was a torture! i could feel the contraction in my stomach. abolished my plan to collect my dress n visit to the salon. instead, i was lying in my bed. fell aslp till it was time to meet dad. yup he's fetching me to collect my laptop. i'm using it now aft spending hrs to do the updates but still not quite done w it yet. argh...shall continue tmr.
my sch work still not done yet. yah as much as u've guessed it, i'm waking up early to do. another long day tmr...
i wanted to show some concern but guess i didnt do it the right way. sorry
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
11:46 pm
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Sunday, July 03, 2005
a busy 2 day exhibition
aft spending so much time preparing for it, it was over yday. me, choy n wong went to cafe cartel for some food. i declined the invitation to go dlb-o. yah simply cos i was v tried. took a cab hm w choy.
i need to do some reflection beside the much work working for me to complete...
another saturday gone next wk cos i'll be at padang w my kids. gosh...when will i have time for myself?
plan to visit the salon tmr n do some shopping AGAIN. need to collect the orange dress which i sent for alteration too. cant u tell by now tt the more shopping trips i haf means there's more stress in me n shopping is my way of working it out from me. my poor pocket juz to buy tt short moment of happiness.
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
10:28 pm
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Friday, July 01, 2005
busy wkend
i expected a busy wkend this wk. well somehow it should be able to keep me from thinking too much from things which i shouldnt be thinking at all. but i really cant help it. the sweet memories r still playing in my mind. argh...wake up...those sweet days over already...wake up...
change topic. busy wk 1 for me. every morning busy w robotics, getting rdy for class, going to class n soon the day is over. barely 5 hrs of slp every nite. argh...wat happened to the remaining 19 hrs everyday??? argh!!! let's hope everything will be back to normal next wk. not so too, gonna administer a survey. argh!!! plus RHD coming...oh gosh...but somehow no matter how busy n tired i m, i'm still missing him.
btw upgraded my broadband plan. less d/c now. hopefully my laptop will be back soon n i can do work fr the cosy corner in my rm. haha...
ciao for now for i haf to be in sch early for the exhibition.
hope everything is a success aft putting in so much effort n time. everyone has been working v hard.
~i juz cant get you out of my head~
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
1:43 am
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